It’s been a long couple of weeks.
I’ve been solo parenting with my husband has been away with the Army and this afternoon/evening he comes home. It feels surreal, he’s come home. I feel like I have been doing this alone all along. It will be great to have him home though. My almost 3 year old has reached her limit coping with his absence. She isn’t dealing with saying goodbye. We had my sister visit for her birthday party and dropping her at the airport resulted in an awful melt down. Full on screaming.
And can I say that this last wonder week has made my 18 month old particularly unpleasant to be around at times? I know that’s really not what you’re supposed to say but holy heck, the tantrums they seem to be never ending. This too shall pass. This too shall pass.
But this afternoon he comes back and I’ll have a partner in parenting again. Woohoo!!!
I have a feeling that today will go really really incredibly slow. Really.
I’ve had some huge revelations about my life and my future during this period of reflection. I’ve had a lot of time alone and a lot of time to really think.
My dreams for the future will come true if I let them. If I hold on to them they will happen. My future success is only limited by the limits I put on it. It will happen.
Truly it will. And I will only be successful by helping others do the same. Pretty cool.
I’m pretty good at this parenting thing, even if I don’t always get it right and feeling like I’m a bad mum means that I care enough to worry about that kind of thing. I just need to remind myself that I am strong and I am good at this. I have two wonderful children who love me, I must be on to a winner.
Other people are going to judge me and my actions and it is not about me, it is all about them. So screw them and their opinions. I’m not going to let them effect me.
Bad days happen, and they happen often when you’re alone. Sometimes it feels like you’re swimming in a deep vat of molasses. It’s okay to feel lonely, sad, angry, upset; it’s not okay to let those feelings consume you. I have to keep moving.
I love being able to drive! Why didn’t I do this earlier?
I’m pretty awesome, my kids are pretty cool, we’re going to do big things and get so many things done. Watch this space.